Skulldiggory

I was a quiet but we energetic child. So one of the ways my mother use to abuse me was to isolate me from the rest of the family, make me sit still for hours on end and if I fell asleep I'd have to be there longer. As I sat there, every nerve on fire, all energy and sensory overload, autistic need to satisfy brain but no distractions, of course id go deep into my brain and maybe fall asleep. they may not have known I was autistic but they exploited it. and while I was too stubborn a child to learn the lesson, I did learn to freak out when I feel isolated. It's nice to have a why, but fuck was that hard to dig out.